一二月

回来了，
最近生活开始进入所谓大人的世界了
做工 放工 睡觉 吃饭
想念大学 朋友
一切过去了
告诉我 已经毕业了
但自己一点也不开心
虽然一直告诉自己
看开一点
但 过不了自己那关
真的
说到这个我就想破口大骂一大堆粗口
算了
真的
回不到的过去
一切成为定局了

话说 通过朋友也知道了他以前的部落
当然 去读完了
看不起自己当时的无知 幼稚
就这样失去一个谈得来的朋友
其实也不懂
如果我们没翻脸
现在还会是朋友吗
还是我其实只是一个帮你追她的一个某某呢
哈哈 也是一件过去的事了

2015 真的是一个不定怎么形容的年
酸甜苦辣 统统都有
二十三年 最辛苦写出来的50页论文
就这样给他们贬低成这样
我也无言了...

很开心的是
我都期待着十二月的每一个周末
有喜事 聚会等
让我把这最后一个月
过的有生有色
大家都要开心

怎么才发现你好久都没更新了？
还好么...？





















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:)

0327

你好 justblursan-92.blogspot.com

0327 早安

姐终于今天可以挨夜了

前几个星期都自己睡下去了

这个学期真的烦到极点

他妈的想自杀想疯了

真的被这个死FYP给弄疯了

我的命运真的那么惨吗

就剩下这个了

让我毕业好吗

后悔莫及了

他妈的就不应该答应

只怪自己笨

看到别人的

好有成就感

而我的 只是一滩泥

一坨屎

FUCK

话说 脸书新功能LIVE 真的不错

今天就很有缘分的

遇到诒博上LIVE

开心的说

他也是我其中一个偶像

超爱他那把充满磁性的声音

才把我那股低落的心情给赶走了

想念他的遗留

的空去听一听咯

好吧

两个星期后要交论文了

可是姐姐才写那两面

等死吧

保佑我

加油

.

11th.

.

hello to you or nobody, i am back to here after ten days. yea, why? stress. feels to give up, but cant. helpless and hopeless. got scolded by lecturer dont know after how many years. damn, why am i so stupid. even a human cant understand my words. he told me i have no improvement at all from the beginning. that moment i was like ........................ sien. so demotivated from that moment, feels like crying, tears drooling. what should i do. i really cant understand. i regretted to choose him as my advisor. i should simply choose one cincai lecturer and get everything done. i made a wrong decision. this is not i wanted to do. been reading journals, but i still dont understand. i need someone to guide me from beginning. or maybe i should say,i choose the wrong path. what to do, what had been choosen is already fix, no one can change it, i dont know how. dont want to get scold for second time. i not dare to find him anymore. i cant take it, really. until today, i haven settle a single thing, my internship, fyp presentation, assignments for two subjects, lab reports, and a lots more. i want to escape from everything. maybe should let me disappear in this world for few weeks. dont feel like ending this year, so sad. life is so terrible and tough in this January, how do i expect good things happen from 2015? FFYP. FML.

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Hi 2015

Good morning 2015!
Yea, coming back to update my blog and i just realise that i only updated three times in previous year.
Sorry for my laziness.

Too much of mix feeling after viewing all posts in instagram and fb,
And i was thinking what about myself?
Yeap, there are too much too review in 2014,
Which i cant remember it one by one.
There are improvement and regression together.
So, for this year, we shall pray that good luck and good stuff come to us,
Where bad luck please go away!

I am bringing over all my assignments and reports from 2014 to 2015.
Feel so useless, i have been draging this for too long, and my fyp...

Finals even coming in a month and i doesn't feel like learning anything in this semester zzz
Intern in three months, yea, nervous.

I always tell myself to work hard and look forward to our holidays and vacations,
But this is too difficult for me in this semester.
This is last year for my in university, so sad and moody,
I dont feel like leaving university life and all my friends,
I dont have any motivation to study and move forward.
I hate last year of my university, fyp driving everyone crazy.
Yea, but how? Nothing can cure, nobody helps, except myself.

Doesn't hope too much in this year because time flies between one year to another.
Hopefully i can graduate happily in this year.
Hopefully i do well in every examination and also my internship.
Hopefully i can save more money to travel around.
Hopefully our mother earth be more healthier.
Hopefully everyone safe and sound.






















By,
Peisan.

疯狂世界

告别了七个月
十月最后一天了
时间真的很快!!!
final year 来也
压力统统来也
title搞定
现在是时候找intern了

七个月
发生好多事
太忙太懒惰了
今天上来后
不知何时
心血来潮
再会上来更新

其实
这不是要更新什么的
只想分享一首好歌
最近好爱
这种曲风
本来就很爱
嘻嘻
希望你们也喜欢 :)

我想我累了 

我厌倦生活 

有一种病叫寂寞 

没人了解我 

我想我疯了 

对幻想寄托 

就让我继续做梦 

我自得其乐 

喔……

疯狂的世界 

疯狂的人们 

我是万千宠爱 

这世界是如此的美 

喔……

疯狂的世界 

疯狂的我们 

就让我继续沉溺在 

这疯狂的世界 

最近其实有再想很多

但

没人让我诉苦

算了 :)

祝 有个美好的十一月
属于我的月份  ♥

珊。