29下半篇.

I am just too care of them
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I am not suppose to end my last post of 2012 like this

Shoudn't be like that

Somehow,i really fed up with you guys
I am like a rubbish or even some dust between you guys
And i don't know why i not dare to reject or ffk any invitation from you guys
I just feel bad if i really do that to you all
I appreciate every single with all of you but.....
I don't know
Shouldn't care too much i guess.

Sometimes i think that why am i always being ignored
Maybe.. I am ugly?
I am fat?
I am not active?
I am not talkative enough?
I am not socialise?
Ya.. Everything is possible.

I really don't want to say anything bad about you guys
But sometimes i really can't take it
My brain will start turning and thinking after every outing with you guys.

Maybe for this moment
I shall play a game with you guys
Erm,hide and seek?
Lets see how.

I guess nothing will change actually LOL
With me or without me
There's no different :)

Today should be a happy and good day for me because i did something meaningful :)
So ya,forget all those stupid stuff :)

See forward for 2013! Please be good to me :)

疑问。

十二月的第一篇
2012的最后一个月
今天总于看到他了
看似很好 应该过得不错
就小小聚会
大家都很忙
有笑了很久很久
蛮开心一下
跟他对上了几句
有点陌生的说
但是那个感觉
若没错 应该还在
只是没那么强烈罢了
所以是怎样
可能太久太久没见面了
太久太久没聊天了

唉 告诉自己要放下
放下! 很难么?
应该是咯。

很想知道是我单方面?
不知道。
好啦 是时候读书了
没时间想太多

最后一个月了
珍惜
还没感受到圣诞气氛的说
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几时可以去走走
感受一下啊? 哈哈

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我真的不知道我在意什么东西
很小一件事
但就很在意
我不懂你自己有没有察觉
那股冲动
真的谁都有
但是也需要时间的好不
又或许你不是认真的
又或许我太认真了
还是太幼稚了
不想骂
就真的不懂要说什么
就无言啊
算了吧
我不懂这是利或害
就珍惜吧
真的

这一切都是巧合
就不想失去
也许我不是什么吧
我也知道你的性格
都一样嘛
只是都是掩饰着
生活都要这样
不然每天愁眉苦脸
干脆死掉算了

知心的 以为容易找
坦白说
我一个都没有
所以这就是我在这里
波罗嗦一大堆的原因
或许对人我真的不会说太多
就算不爽某人
静静就好啦
何必去跟那个某人说什么的
自己心知肚明就好了
不需要让全世界都知道吧

你的影响力其实还蛮大的
不然 我怎么会豁出去
还真的要谢谢
我真的不懂我每天这样
你还可以忍受
就连我自己也内疚
想把自己揍一顿
而你却可以忍受
我真的不懂是如何
对不起谢谢
真的

对呀
我是没有什么用的
因为从小我就是这样
我能变到现在这样
可能对别人来说
还是很差很不好
但对我来说
比较以前
真的改变了很多
东西知识是要学
但我真的需要时间
我不是那些精英之类的
我只是一个比平凡人还要平凡的一个人

要说的其实还有很多
说不完
现在要做的就是睡觉
*我又没守承诺了 :(
只是突然很想发泄一下
今天的情绪
让它消失掉
明天再加油
最后一天了
我要捐血 :)
日行一善 开心 :)

105thday

i'm a little teapot.

yea,it's gonna be a messy post again

just want to write something in some place that no one will know

no one know? hope so.

alright,pictures are just to fill up this stupid post.

belated present?

my ice watch <3 thanks mum.

my hair no longer black

i hate white hair so much

i actually wanted to dye my hair since last year

but i cant stay away from my black hair

until there's so many people tell me that

'hey,you've lots of white hair' :(

not to say sad,it's just the problem of the white hair

so i decided to dye

but after i dyed

many of them say the colour doesn't suit me =(

aish,and i'm bit regret

cause my hair now become 'dry grass' =(

i know how strong the chemical is

am i wrong?

the blue black from cycling

it's still on my leg

it's now turn into brownish

can you disappear from my leg asap?

please.

guess what?

181112

paintball day.

rm39 per person

i'm not that kind of person who like to play this kind of games

=v=

anyway,happy to know two IET members from UCSI

at least we talk LOL

the gun!

no3's hand

don't know who shoot him

worst than mine

present from paintball! tqvm

you give me billion dollar i also won't play it

super duper pain

i thought i can tahan

but i couldn't

i am weak =(

tears coming out non stop

i tried to stop it but the pain getting serious

until now,i still not dare to press it

aiks!

like a taufu.

like a teapot.

poohpooh socks

captured because i love it

that's all

no other reason.

simple

oh? is that me?

chubby?

i don't care

i want back those happiness

but i know it's impossible

so...

stay happy everyday :)

♥

20.

就这样

光阴似箭

我活了十九年

感恩 感激

谢谢上天让我活着到现在

让我从幼儿园 小学 中学

到现在上了一年的大学

甚至让我可以平平安安坐在这里上网 写部落

满足了 真的 :)

十九岁

很庆幸有三个蛋糕 嘻嘻

谢谢你们的惊喜

虽然有破绽

但是还不错

我被骗了 ><

大学的。中学的。

你们都成功啦

感恩 :D

那个维尼

到底花了多久时间找啊 ><

很爱 赫赫

不过 有心就好

我感受到的 ><

真的不用特地去找

这样我过意不去的说

不过 维尼已在消化着了

花了几天才把它吃完 哈哈哈

还有那张卡

不要再叫我 JS 了 

连那个老妈也在胡思乱想

哎哟哟

搞得我也不晓得怎样解释

不过 还是要谢谢

麻烦你们了 嘻嘻

感激不尽

又欠人情了？哈哈

另外 中学的

意想不到的说

我真的有被吓到下下

谢谢你那么忙考试还抽空

叫人出来 帮我庆祝

虽然气氛有点尴尬

但是还是谢谢

遗憾的是 我没有吃到唐伯虎 ><

你们怎么不在那边等我呢

哎哟哟

我要吃么 ><

唯有等下次呗

祝福 信息 脸书的 whatsapp的

统统收到咯

感谢 :DDD

那个你 是忘了吗？:(

所以 真的真的要放下？:(

放不下 。

好啦 二十了

依然不习惯

老了？长大了？

三年 好好撑下去吧

辜佩珊 你要加油

二十岁了

可以独立一点吗？

多读一点书

少用一点钱

嘻嘻 就这样

要说得很多

说不完

全部都在脑海里

自己知道就好 :)

总之

重点就是要

谢谢你们全部全部

谢谢陪我走过十九年的爸妈

谢谢十九年让我依靠的朋友

谢谢谢谢!

除了谢谢我真的不懂要说什么了 ><

free chatime :D

google knows my birthday XD

:)))

poohpooh! <3

aiyoyo ><

thanks for the starbucks! :)

tzl hardwork! :)

present from bigeyebaby :D

present from mum XD

sister's work XD

poohpooh eye gone liao xp

rc gang :)))

npnk take 1

npnk take 2

哎哟哟

总算写完了

花了好长的时间 

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是时候找周公约会了

嘻嘻

明天假期

去起脚车

开心 :D

安咯 :)

Happy Deepavalii & Happy Holiday :)

last words of 19th.

yay
back from DRRO
i am safe :D
super tired
i know i am not only the one
everyone tired gaogao include committee ><
thanks for the effort
and yay
i am the leader of the group
but thankful i have good members
although they were like kindergarden kids LOL
without them,i dont think i manage to do everything by my ownself
sorry for my bad temper
aiyoyo too tired
the first day really emo
luckily don't have period pain ><
and thanks for the hot water :)
at night
didn't manage to sleep
tears almost drop out ><
but luckily,i am still alive here

learnt a lot of stuff!
from 0 maybe until now got 45 already :)
thanks a lot :)

mass cooking was fun :D
but the spatula super heavy ><
need to use two hand to mix those ingredients together
food not bad nia :)

the emo night ><

:)

anyway,it's over and i am happy cause i overcome it already :)
one more thing,i passed my supp paper :)
no need to retake but still need to go look for advisor =(

teehee
no more bz
turning to 20 already ><
feel old with the '2'
stay tune for the next post :)

appreciate :)
heart :)