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hai my dear blog,the only place i can express everything here.  Just get back from Leo's nomination for next fiscal year. guess what? and ya. SECRETARY. i have no idea how to reject and i truly hope i am not the one who take this pose. somehow,i knew they have no choice but i am the only choice? since i am the vice for this year. Thinking about to become an active member in Leo club or even to leave Leo club. but,i am those person who don't dare to say no. i did told them my own problem but i don';t understand why they will still choose me for this pose. not to say i am not satisfied with this and not to say i am not willing to take this pose. alright,maybe my time management is not really good and this affect my results in uni. add on,as i am the elder in my family,i need to take care of my sisters and the home. even for now,i used to tell myself to study at least an hour a day but i can't do it. i can't really have spare time to study or even sleep. Easily to fall in sleep recently although i thought i get enough sleep but i didn't. even though i can predict they will choose me for that pose but arghh i don't know. i afraid of i didn't do my job properly and destroy the whole club. i afraid i cant spare much time for meeting since i am really busy for uni life. i need to improve my result as it's really bad. yet i can't. hahh! i guess my parents will keep nag me for not quitting this club huh? 

gotta be a bad night and perhaps,

time for some revision

finals in two weeks time yet i don;t even know a single thing.

goodluck!

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